The Worst Thing I Can Think of Doing...

...is being a wrench a bike demo outfitting TT bikes.

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Who the hell wants to be surrounded by cycling media folk, triathletes, uber-anal TT freaks, and more generally, people who couldn't turn a wrench to save their lives?  Especially when it comes to base bars, internal cable routing, hydraulic brakes, and sweaty, chode-y saddles?  I'd rather demo cyclocross bikes in a field littered with cowpies.  I could go on and on about this, but it's been a long week of desk jockey and I'm getting up early to go hiking and rock climbing.  So yeah, I'm logging out of my brain now.  Bye bye.

周末愉快!

Thinking Hard

so here's a quick blurb:

I'm working on/at a bike shop-studio-bar-cafe-thing.  It's in a hutong and run by one of the expats I know through the cycling club I ride with.  I'm obviously super excited about this project and the experience of helping to build something new.  I'll only be a part-time wrench when this thing finally get's underway, but for the moment, I'm acting as a wrench+consultant, helping to strategize our repair offerings and tool up for the kind of bikes that the shop will likely see.  It's been fun and I can't wait to get a little more time with a wrench in my hands instead of a keyboard.

There are a lot of interesting folks in the expat community here and the cycling club provides a pretty interesting cross-section of them.  We all share a similar passion for cycling (though mine's a bit more dirtbaggy than others), but come from different backgrounds.  This bike SSBCT has leveraged the expertise from a few other people with their wealth of experience in their particular backgrounds.  From the guys we've ridden with , the owner's consulted with a super-mixologist (he calls himself a bartender, but IMO he's got crazy skills), who's helped develop several bars through the city.  He's somehow convinced me to work for him (ed- it didn't take much, haha).  And he got some help from an architect in the club too.

Architects....

They're a funny breed...

Whereas I come from the dirty depths for grease and gears, these guys come from a background in proper technical school combined with art and industrial design.  When a problem came up with the bike rack that was being built in front of the shop (the bikes weren't leaning over by themselves or staying in place), the architect's solution was to build a backing of sprung steel behind the wooden slats to push the rear wheels against a bar that each user would have to flip a switch to grab the rim through the spokes.

My solution:

A hook.

Thinking about things too hard can be funny sometimes.

The Trick

The trick to staying awake at the office is not coffee.  It's water.  Drink enough and the constant bathroom breaks will do more to *ahem* stimulate your work day than just caffeine.  It's healthier too.

Also, making plans for your next dinner outing or adventure or meal-adventure (sometimes it's both) can help too.  Referring to the picture below, I need to steel my stomach first but I will definitely be eating some creepy crawlies soon!

I'll definitely be eating some of these

Winter Wait Part Two - The Great Wall

Chinese New Year is a crazy holiday here.  This city essentially shuts down for 7 days.  Most of its population return to their families' homes in various provinces throughout China.  Many expats do the same or take the opportunity to go on vacation.  Those few Beijingers that actually stay in the city are presented with a weeklong fireworks demonstration.  Firecrackers, rockets, Roman candles, and mortars are lit, fired, and launched all day with seemingly little regard for safety or people's sleep schedules.  Thankfully I'm a pretty sound sleeper and managed to snooze through the percussive pyrotechnics displays bursting literally right outside the window of my 8th floor apartment.  Despite the omnipresent explosions and streets littered with the smoldering remains of celebratory munitions, the Beijing population is significantly pared down during CNY.  It becomes as close to a ghost town as one can imagine for a bustling city with a population of 12+ million.  The simple fact that I didn't have to elbow anyone out of my way (unless I wanted to) was a novelty to me after over 6 months of MMA-style pedestrian travel.  CNY is a family holiday after all.  It's a combination of Thanksgiving and (Gregorian) New Year celebrations.  People spend time with the relatives, eat lots, and go on family outings to temple fairs.  Being that I'm here without family, I spent the first half of last week drinking in the whole Beijing-style New Year celebration.  I went to a few random parties and spent a fair amount of time at the handful of bars and restaurants that were actually open during the holiday.  Unwilling to lose my finely honed "crowd management" skills, I ventured into a handful of traditional miaohui's (or temple fairs) to battle my way through the hordes of Chinese tourists.  I successfully elbowed, stomped, and wedged my way through the craziness to "chuan'r"  (kabob-style street food) stalls, performance stages, and festival games.  I even managed to snap a few pictures as well.  But you can only do so much celebrating and binge drinking in one week, so I made other plans to carry me through the holiday.

Wednesday morning, I packed my giant Chrome bag with (too much) stuff and rode my bike to the Great Wall at a village called Mutianyu.  Here are a few highlights:

My shit was heavy

It's winter and as such, one must prepare accordingly if one expects to be comfortable (and alive) at the end of a 100km slog through the mountains.  Unfortunately, if you're this Idiot you would overpack for every possible contingency imaginable in the mountains.  This was mostly because only Idiots ride by themselves in the middle of the winter on unfamiliar mountain roads.  I packed enough to survive sleeping on the side of the road for a few days.  I packed enough to fend off a Mongol horde when I reached the Great Wall (i.e. I had a big knife and was practicing my "angry" face).  I packed 2 cameras, extra batteries, a spare lens, a giant flash, n+1 pairs of underwear and socks (where n=# of days spent in mountains) and enough anti-bonk ride fuel to bring the late Fausto Coppi back from the dead then give him a near-lethal food coma.  And don't get me started on spare tools and bike parts, because I cursed every extra ounce of spare tubes, tools, Gorilla tape, toe straps and zip ties that I lugged up those damn mountains.

My ass was slow

By now, you've realized that Idiots like to make things hard for themselves.  Whether its weighing themselves down with unnecessary weight or just downright choosing the wrong equipment for the ride, I stood unified with fellow Idiots both far and near and rode an obnoxiously slow pace to my mountain retreat.  Obviously being that it's the "off-season" here [ed - it's always the off-season here] my fatass didn't have the fitness to push a big gear, which was made even steeper by the 700x35c cyclocross tires I threw on before my trip.  Did I mention my shit was heavy?  Grinding up a small mountain road with a 30lb pack and a 30lb bike on fat, knobby tires isn't going to help me break any cycling land speed records.  But thankfully that wasn't my intention in the first place.  One of the best things about riding by yourself is that you can just ride your own pace.  If you want to putz along uphill in your 34x27, you can (and I definitely did).  If you want to little ring it on the flats and spend your time vegging out in the saddle you can (and you better believe I did that too).  All in all despite being crazy slow and ridiculously overpacked, I didn't really regret my decisions despite the vulgarities spewing out of my mouth on some of the climbs.  Obviously I'll pack smarter/lighter (and have some semblance of athleticism and legs) the next time, but I used everything I packed and wasn't stressed to make it anywhere quickly.  I did start worrying a bit when the sun started setting and I was in the bone-chilling shadow of the Yan mountain range, but this Idiot was ready for just about anything, plus I was on vacation dammit!

I  like mountains

I haven't been on a vacation in a long time.  Excluding a brief weekend trip to Xiamen a few weeks ago, I haven't planned any trips for myself in years that didn't involve some kind of bike racing agenda.  So even though the temperatures averaged -4* C last week, nothing sounded better to me than escaping the urban jungle and biking to a eco-retreat in the mountains next to the Great Wall.  The Brickyard was built in 2009 from a reclaimed tile factory that was shut down due to increased pollution regulations.  The new owners renovated the compound and turned it into a 16-room lodge with a small restaurant, spa, and garden all designed and committed to environmental sustainability.  The simple luxuries of fresh air, clear skies, and a remote location had been lost to me since I got to Beijing, but I finally got out of the city and really enjoyed a couple days in the mountains.  In the simplest words: It was nice.

The Great Wall is epic

Even simpler still is using the word "epic" to describe the Great Wall.  A lot of people rag on the local sectors of the Wall as being touristy, crowded, or fake.  Since Mutianyu is so close to the city, it's probably one of the more traversed parts, but thankfully not in the winter, when it's too cold for most tourists to make the trip out to the mountains.  It gets even better when you wake up early in the morning and beat the crowds.  I got up before sunrise to take the short 40-minute hike from my room to the base of the Wall.  Getting there before most of the village residents had even woken up, I was the first one there and had the entire thing to myself.  I watched the sun rise over the hills and just sat around taking pictures as the light worked its way over the sleepy villages below.  Touristy?  Nah.  I'll take a quiet morning hike along the Great Wall anywhere anytime and I'm definitely planning to go back.

The view from The Brickyard

The Sounds of Being Sharp

I hate the sound of the air being sucked through the top of my plastic Starbucks lid.  With each swig of my Americano, coffee is replaced by nothingness and there's an audible reminder that I'm becoming a complete square.  In concert with the keys tapping on keyboards and shoes trudging along the thin office carpet, this whistling cup o' joe has become a featured artist in the official soundtrack of a desk jockey.


It's not enough to say I miss riding my bike.  That's a given.  The sense of freedom and exhilaration from riding a bike doesn't need to be explained to anyone who might've stumbled upon this blog.  And while I'm still more than capable of achieving that same sense of adventure and excitement, those opportunities are becoming fewer and further between.  I've since replaced time in the saddle with nights out, binge drinking until the wee hours in the morning, but it's not as if my priorities have changed.  An epic early morning bike ride still takes precedence over boozing the night before, but my heavy drinking has become a function of the availability of safe, non-toxic riding conditions and opportunities to compete or participate in racing or riding events.  


I miss being sharp on the bike.  I knew I would, but nothing serves as a better reminder that your legs are worthless than attending a UCI World Cup Track race.  Last weekend I attended the second day of Round 3 of the World Cup Track race at the Laoshan Velodrome, which was only my second time at a velodrome and my first as purely a spectator.  I went by myself, and besides all the athletes and their supporting staff, I was only one of a few dozen in attendance.  Alone with my thoughts, I reveled in the uniqueness of track racing.  From a road and cyclocross background (sprinkled with a random backcountry mtb race every now and then), it was pretty amazing to see every aspect of a bike race in detail unfold right in front of you.  You can observe racers' in their element, every nuance in their preparation and race tactics.  A keen eye can spot the moment when a racer cracks, completely shuts down, and can't push his body any further.  At the same time, you can pinpoint the exact moment a racer lays it all on the line and makes his bid for victory.  It's like watching a chemical reaction unfold in a petri dish from beginning to end and it's something that you can't seem to get anywhere else.  A 'cross race comes close, but you ultimately end up having some part of the race obscured from your view.  As a spectator, watching the events at Laoshan was one of the most significant reminders that I miss having the legs for competition.  My heart would yearn for the days of pinning numbers on as the air filled with the sounds of thick chains driving impossibly steep gears, disc wheels slicing through the air, and the faint breathes of the racers as they rumble along the wooden boards.  It's not enough to say that it was an "experience."  It was probably the most pure and concentrated summation of everything I miss about training and bike racing, to sharpen legs and mind to their full potential, and the hurts-so-good feeling of just plain going fast as hell.  I know I've been a pretty mediocre racer relative to what a lot of people have managed to accomplish, but I'll be damned if I don't have plans to get those legs (or better ones) back.

Unlevel riding at a high level.

The Runs

In what was quite literally my first vacation in several years, I visited Xiamen last weekend, escaping the bitter cold, snog/smow, and general craziness of the Beijing for a couple days.  Xiamen, being a southern coastal city in the Fujian province, had fantastic air quality, warm weather, delicious seafood, and perfect conditions to run a marathon in January.  Or if you're a fat desk jockey like this Idiot, you'd run the half marathon but with slightly more preparation than the last one you did.

Honestly, it wasn't really hard to do more in preparation for this run.  My training for the Beijing half marathon in October was nil.  You might even say it was negative training if you consider the fact that a week before the run I was in the US, drinking lots of delicious beer and pigging out on multiple trips to Chipotle.  So with a handful of runs logged on a treadmill/torture device between October and January, my cup runneth over with confidence that I'd beat my previous time.  I did.  But then literally 15 minutes later, Peter Kamais finished his marathon.  The full one.  Of course, comparing myself to a professional marathoner is like comparing a sack of potatoes to a rocket ship.  The only thing that could propel a potato at a velocity even remotely close to that of a rocket ship would be my homemade PVC potato gun, but the police in northern Virginia have that in their possession now.  Fortunately, I have no aspirations to become a speedy marathoner.  Running is specifically categorized in my book as "Stuff-I-do-because-riding-bikes-in-Beijing-is-damn-near-impossible" or in the genus "No Big Deal"  That it might be fun or a challenge never really enters my mind.  Save for the beautiful scenery that Xiamen has, it was a rather boring and easy run.  Doing a run at the pace I did and for the amount that I trained can't be considered an accomplishment.  Its not like I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser or anything.  If I were to ever win a TV competition, the show would have to be named Averagest Boringer.  Being told my entire life that I could do great things if I "apply myself," I know when I'm being a slacker or when I've really got my head in the game.  Using a grade-school scale of achievement, my performance was far from astronaut-caliber, but I'm damn sure glad it gave me an excuse to get out of 'Jing for a minute.  It felt damn nice to breathe clean air and hear myself think for a minute.

Fighting through all these people at the start effs up your finishing time.

Is It Worth It?

It's a new year.  I think it's 2012, but won't be able to tell for another 6 months after all the constant auto-correct reminders and scathing remarks about my Idiocy sink it.  As it is, my learning curve is rather inelastic.

While I do wish I had posted more entries last year, I have struggled to find a more relevant purpose for writing here.  No.  I am not nor am I capable of having deep introspective moments so don't think that time I spilled my guts about x, y, and z while drinking a fifth of bourbon will happen here.  I'm simply looking for more interesting things to write about.  Obviously, I'm no longer a dirtbag bicycle mechanic, nor am I racing (poorly) in the MABRA scene.  My grease- and roadrash-based muse has left me for now.  Things have changed a lot and many of the things I've thought about posting about Beijing have been pretty base complaints about air quality, obnoxious crowds, and traffic.  I mean, how often do you want to hear about this Idiot essentially elbowing a random Chinese person in the face because he zigged when he should have zagged?  Because this happens on a daily, no hourly basis.  People here walk everywhere.  Ev. eR. RHEE. WHERE.  They do so while giving off the appearance of having a fixed trajectory in concert with the drunken stumblings of a toddler-hobo ("todbo" or "hoddler").  You could also liken it to the organized chaos in a beehive.  It's almost completely unpredictable.  They'll look like their walking straight towards you until at the the last moment they strafe right or left.  I find it best to stare at their feet, keep my elbows out, and think skinny thoughts as I squeeze by the Chinese masses.  But I do this everyday on my way to work and I don't want to complain about it everyday because some days I get really pissed off by it while other days I hardly notice it (likely because I'm drunk).  The point is I don't want this to be a blog where I constantly peddle my petty complaints. 

Nor do I want this to be a place where I write stupid letters home to let people know that I'm "doing fine" or "having fun" or "sober".  Firstly, because of all of 2.5 people read this thing, none of them are family (thankfully).  Secondly, us Idiots are built from hardy albeit slightly dim-witted stock, so there's no need to worry about us.  We're capable of surviving any number of hostile environments, i.e. the Beijing club scene, any Beijing crosswalk or bike lane, and even nights out with a few cases of baijiu.  Finally, I work a regular 9-to-5 and don't even travel enough to be worried about.  And further to that point, I'm not here to do all the touristy crap either.  Don't get me wrong, there is a lot to see here, but like my time in Washington DC, I don't feel compelled by this city's "impressiveness" to experience absolutely every damn tourist trap there is.  So don't expect "OMG. Like the Forbidden Palace is like an amazing dude."

Despite my somewhat hurried departure from the states, I feel like I had pretty reasonable goals and expectations about what I was going to encounter in Beijing.  I knew there would be plenty of things that I needed or wanted to do here and that I'd have to take some lumps along the way.  But let's be honest, those lumps aren't really that big an issue, especially if you look at them in the grand scheme of things and what I stand to gain from them.  Even considering the fact that I moved here practically without knowing anyone or a single Chinese guttural utterance to save my life, I've been surrounded my entire life by dozens of people who've managed to do more with less than what I came to Beijing with, including my parents.  And if there's anything that'll light a fire under a second-generation refugee's ass, it's the fact that your parents aren't exactly impressed with whatever tiny problems you might have.  Are they proud of what I'm doing?  Yeah.  Sure.  Sympathetic?  Maybe a little.  Impressed, though?  Not likely.  I can just see it now.  If I started complaining to my parents, they'd say something to the effect of "So lemme get this straight: you have clothes, food, and shelter and don't have to scrub toilets or wash dishes and you're complaining because....?"  It's the Asian equivalent of the Western "I walked 15 miles each way to school in 6 feet of snow" story.  So I just plan to plug away, work hard, soldier on, sack up, power through, etc etc.  But the point isn't be be impressive; not to my parents or anyone else.  I'm not infallible (hardly possible when you're drunk all the time).  I'll be honest and say that I stress out some days.  Things aren't always easy here, but they're far from horrible and the only way things will get any better is if I do something about it.  So if you asked me if I'm "doing ok," you're asking the wrong question.  At the end of the day, it's more about doing what you want, right?  Cyclist know this as a fact of life.  "Suffering" is a term too often used and glorified, but can be appropriately used in this instance.  People on bikes can put up with a lot of shit when they ride; cowpies, road rage, hazardous weather, hazardous riders, etc.  We bonk, crash, break things, and still get back in the saddle.  People sometime think we're insane for putting up with here are a multitude of reasons why we do it, but it boils down to: I just wanted to, dammit.  

So a more appropriate question to ask is "are you getting what you want out of whatever you're doing?"

I'm not here in this country because I made a singular resolution that I would "try new things."  I'm not here because I wanted to leave my family, my friends, and my dog behind.  I don't enjoy the pollution or the crowds. And a effing hate doing touristy crap that, despite several thick coats of paint on so-called ancient historical treasures, seems so transparently oriented towards ripping off foreigners.  (ed- as a personal goal, I aim to the stand-and-smile in front of as few of these famous Beijing sites as possible).  No I'm here to pursue a life that I think is fully within my grasp and worth taking a few lumps for.  And because it's still strange for me to be so goal-oriented, I leave it at that.

So if I was going to arrive at a point I guess I had better do it now:  "Fine," "fun," and "sober" are all subjective terms.  If you want to know how someone's doing, compare what they're doing to what they want to be doing and what what ultimately want to achieve.  Sometimes I use "living the dream" to describe this and can be tough sometimes to act on "dream" plans.  But if you asked me right now if moving to China was worth it, my response would be:

"Fuck yeah it was."

Meh.  City life.  Didn't come here for that, but I'll take it.